saviorette

every single day, i get asked by someone as to why i love him. why i love him even with the way he treats me. i am constantly bombarded with negative comments about him from the people i love so dearly.

"you know that glimmer in your eye when you see him? well, i don't see it in his eyes."

i seriously don't know what it is. what it is that has him under my skin. something i'm so attached to. i really don't see why i can't let what we had go. sometimes, i think he can't let go either, which brings some sense of comfort to me. he drives me crazy though. when we're around other people, i seriously want to knock him in his face out of sheer frustration. actually, ninety percent of the time i spend with him i feel this way. but it's when we're alone that things change. it just doesn't make sense to me. someone said something that did make sense though.

"he needs you and you realize that. so subconsciously, you're not ready to let go because he isnt."


but then again, i shouldn't make someone a priority when they only make me an option.