savashnitch

Hi there.

i'm a bit sad... my fault.... really. It's very difficult being different in a world of cloned profiles, where everyone does the same, thinks the same and acts the same way... then you try to be kind, to look after others, always with your best intentions, and you get the feeling that all goes to hell and you're such an asshole.

I don't know, sometimes i feel this is just not my place, it's like i've never had belong to here, all i do is weird at other people eyes, FUCK IT, FUCK EM... I'm proud of being different, i'm proud of not behaving the same way as the whole society. I'm not another sheep.

So, theres only one thing left, leaving far far away from all, and try to find the place i really belong to, because, till then all i get is pain, dessilussion, and the feeling of being like a martian on a militar convention...

Hope your lifes are more joyfull than mine.

Have a good time, and dont worry about me, i'll survive, as always i've done... it's just only a sad day.



Loneliness

Hurting inside, no one to talk to
to talk this mood through with,
I am used to this solitary introspection
but it still hurts.
After all this time of being alone-
all the months, seasons, people behind me
I still don't get used to the loneliness.

Shouldn't it be enough that I was loved
for a brief moment in time, wasn't I held
close in someone's heart, didn't I
feel the joy that only love can inspire, weren't
we one, if only for one long afternoon,
weren't we?

The familiar torrent of distant memories only brings me home
where my dreams unravel and my sleep is fitful
to this empty place where only I live.
no friend's laughter to cheer me up
nor sparkle in the mirror when I look at me
no love crackling in my veins
or passion kindling my heart.

I am alone
comfortless and cold

"Abby D"