savashnitch

Sometimes is hard to be single, alone most time, surrounded by computers, here in my shelter, aisled from everything outside, working, keeping my mind occupied.

I know I had made a decission that affects my whole life, I'm a coder, I has been a long way to get here, lots of hours of study, practice, years and years learning and growing on my professional carrer... its a lonely and very competitive profession.

I suppose that's the reason I need to party every free time, all night long, till sunshine, my opportunity of meeting interesting people, places to get new girls that give me the affect and care every one needs.

I look back and remember best times, ex-girlfriends, lovers... that kind of things, affective stability... Things we have been taught from child to repeat stablished social patterns (family, house, car, childs, work, sacrifice, consumism...), you know what i mean. Things without with we feel empty, lonely and depressed.

Who is really free?

Maybe the one that cannot see the walls of his prision?
Maybe the one who is aisled from everything on a lost place?

I don't know, the only thing I really know is the price of surviving on this society, the effort and sacrifice that you need to have a "good life", a "status"...

Yes, I have good clothes, a convertible car, my own house, my plants, my pet, my computers and my toys, all paid with my blood, my work and my sacrifice.
So why the fuck i feel empty? maybe it's because being nude in a desert beach with the one you love and the sunshine in front of us is the only thing i really need to feel free...

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And this is what i see when i go out...

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Take your own conclussions...