my girl friend is the most awesum lady i have ever met.
sinse i got laied off , she has been the one person who has kept me sane.
i have never been without a job for longer than a day sinse i have been 13 years old, be it walking peoples dogs, or building houses, and any/everything in between. i am a total workahaulic. so not having a job is really hard for me. i feel lower than shit right now, unemploiment is hell for me. i have literally had 3 or 4 nirvous break downs over the last week, mainly because , i am having a dificult time finding a job. which as i said is very new to me. she has been there for me through this bullshit. down to literally giving me a sholder to cry on. i have never had a girl friend be there for me in hard times they either ran like hell or just made things worse. i dont know if it is just that i have shitty taist in girls, or that most girls dont care , but having some one be there and be supportive, ans careing is so new to me, and i must say i love it. i have no earthly idea what the hell i did to deserve such a fantastic lady in my life but i am so very glad i did it. hell for that matter , i have no idea what someone so pirfect sees in a fuck up like me but i am glad beyond words she does. i know most of you honestly could give 2 shits and a fuck about any of this, but i had to tell some one how fucking awesum she is. someone other than just her that is i make it a point to show her she is loved and appreaciated in every way i can, but i want the whole world to know too.

thanx for listening.