i'm not feeling anything in the slightest about my ex. i feel like he's pushed me really far away. it makes me feel alienated from ...everything i've known for the past 3 years. i miss him, but then i don't.
everything is so extreme right now. either good or bad. no inbetween.
i want to be wanted by that person. i want the inner part of me that thinks she doesn't know the outer to want me. things are shifting and i cant tell if that's good.
lately i feel like God's practical joke. that scares me. not because i'd be a joke but i need my faith in something above all this to get me through life. i can't be totally cynical about shit. i'd shrivel up and destroy myself. i'll figure it out i guess.
still very content though, if that would make sense.
i am infatuated, smitten. i hate this feeling because i can't control it. such is life.
everything is so extreme right now. either good or bad. no inbetween.
i want to be wanted by that person. i want the inner part of me that thinks she doesn't know the outer to want me. things are shifting and i cant tell if that's good.
lately i feel like God's practical joke. that scares me. not because i'd be a joke but i need my faith in something above all this to get me through life. i can't be totally cynical about shit. i'd shrivel up and destroy myself. i'll figure it out i guess.
still very content though, if that would make sense.
i am infatuated, smitten. i hate this feeling because i can't control it. such is life.
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do you promise? please please
I love being smitten. I just have a slight problem of being infatuated with people that are inaccessible somehow. I wish I could control it too, but I can't. That is really starting to piss me off.