saturn1

Mamiya or Hasselblad? neither. i'm a simple girl. maybe too simple. but that sounds like a lie in refernce to me.

didn't realize that picture was a good one...thanks you and you and you.

....in re: to looking to others for inspiration, i totally understand that. i rather like being single right now. not even for the freedom really, but for the space. i like having time with my brain. and inspiration is everywhere. i guess i thrive on stimulation from others though. i like to know what the force is that is driving everything/everyone and it's hard to feel that when you don't get excited about people you interact with everyday. and i think the lonliness stems more from needing someone to share shit with rather than thinking i'll be happier with someone next to me. the truth is i'm not happy because i feel dependent and i need to feel more stable than that. hence the whole breaking up w/ my ex thing. i mean the person i curl up with could be anyone...a friend, anything. although people seem to shit their pants at the thought of me sleeping in the same bed as my best friend who is a boy. maybe if i just moved to saturn and made my own state where people can't live very far from each other unless they want to be hermits and that you can sleep in any bed you want and not be thought a slut then i'd be a shinier, brighter me.

hah.

maybe not.

some of you guys are swell though.

ay, i was broken. i'm probably missing from your friends list. they fixed me. add me back, i love you.

thank you for reading send me lemons and salt and tooth enamel.