saturn1

today's mantra: i will not be overwhelmed with my life. repeat x3.

just when i think i'm going to assume the fetal postion and start mumbling to myself, a friend shows up and makes me a mojito or something similar gives me push. that's good. very good.

seems like all my relationships that have some history attached are fucked. i guess that happens. a few stay with you and the rest inevitably have to end. my best friend told me that i fucked up by not being there for him this year, with his sister getting killed and a ton of other stuff happening, and he's right. but he's my best friend because understands and tells me about my fuckups rather'n holding them over my head. he's a good guy. i lub him.

back to paul mitchell redesign bullshit. again, when will the weekend be here?!

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7.24

holy fucking goodness i am almost done with this paul mitchell redesign shit for school. please God make a good person be working at kinkos...just have to assemble it after i print it.

i really needed sleep yesterday and so i called off from work...took a nap during the day after i got home from class. and dreamt about having sex with rupaul in and out of drag. eventually i had a lovechild with him. must remember to not get TOO much sleep.

a boy that i really dig that i always think forgets about me because there's always 2 weeks or something between contact called last night while i was working, boo i missed the call. he told me to call him back but didn't leave the number. sounds like something i would do.