saturn1

how come nobody told me i was moving into a new age bracket? wtf? 26-35? fuckers.

i'm a berry-loving-fuck! i can't quit eating berries. they are great. though, i was noticing how freakishly big that are lately. i swear when i was younger they were half the size they are now. this is leading me to believe that i should start buying more organic if not all organic produce.... this shit should not be THAT big. sure, maybe one or two monster blackberries or strawberries, it happens. but the whole damn thing.. they're gonna turn me into frankenstein.

no work tonight. i could wet myself. i'm not going to, though. just going to catch up on homework and stay in all day because i am trying to quit smoking again and as soon as i get in my car i can't fight the urge to light a cigarette. if i don't have any i talk myself into stopping and getting more. i figure if i let it get out of my system for a day or two then i can at least fight the urge to stop and get more... if i stay at home it's a lot easier to avoid smoking because i can't smoke inside {and it's COLD out} and i can keep myself busy... i don't what i'm thinking, stopping meat and smoking at the same time. am i crazy? maybe that's why i've been a berry freak lately.

my ex made my birthday weekend crap. i'll leave it at that. at least some friends made it short of being complete trash. but hell... i am so sick of him making me feel like shit, like i'm neglecting him as if we were still together, and me allowing it.

anyways.

ebay is the devil. i keeping almost buying this as if i have money for it > http://www.toysrgus.com/images-toys/figuretoys/ewokvillage.html

i had one when i was a kid and i was obsessed with it. i keep looking at garage sales and thrift stores ... but, if i do find one, what the fuck am i going to do with it? and where did the one i had go? i am convinced that mom's should be banned from touching toys until the child who's toys are in question are at least 25. because that's when you get older and want that shit. hmpf.