saturn1

i cant quit playing guns & roses 'don't cry'

who the fuck knows why. i didn't mean to rhyme that. i fucking love guns & roses. things seem good. fun with a lil dude that i absolutely adore. the people in my life rule, except the ones that i don't see enough {*coughbikeboy*couGH*} ... i'm going to san francisco at the end of the month. RULES. i'll be broke there but im not sure i care. fuck i'm a rhyming MASTA tonight.

one thing that makes me sad is

that when i was younger and was into someone else i would remember every little thing they said, did, how they kissed, touched me.... etcetera ... now all i remember is highlights. i sort of miss that.
well. it's cool but i guess with age comes the loss of awe. i definitely miss the feeling of awe. at least with MY aging process it's been lost. seems to have numbed things. i think its called cynicism. i've always been cynical about things but never quite FELT it. through all my layers of skin and in my blood. fuckin earthlings!

anyways i still gets the butterflies in my tummy for people so its not ALL bad

dogsitting this week. i feel like i should get a jockstrap. that dog has serious crotch issues. serious ones!

please remeeeemmmber that i neeever lied...