saturn1

everything right now involves a weird combination of really stressful and really good. like, ok, i got good prospects at getting a job in what i went to school for - which is near impossible in the area i live - but my crappy crap job just offered me health insurance and man i've been living so long without it. i'm irritated that living without decent health care not only happens but to way too many people. and its not just people living under the poverty line, which really makes me wonder if i'm fooling myself about the quality of life in the states... not that it's perfect anywhere else, but damnit im sick of worrying about what i'll do if i get sick or hurt.
anyways that was a rant

.... i got a lot of random checks coming... and at least two bill collectors starting legal action, some defaulted accounts and the threat of my phone being cut off... we'll see how long other things last, like my domain which hosts my email and such.... it's just one of those time where i feel like im sinking more than floating. but then i keep remembering that ive made it before, i'll do it again.

AND i got a car AND i graduated {almost, math left - that's stress - but one of my most favoritest girls eva who's been MIA from michigan for a couple years is moving back. not only is that the coolest news ive heard in long time, but she's got an engineering degree and can explain math to me like nobody's business!!! }

plus almost all the people that i've been missing or that have been absent from my life are appearing out of no where. that is really cool. most of them i thought i'd never see again. a few people that i thought would be around forever and ever have disappeared.

i also have the long term plans of moving to nyc and / or going to grad school... in the immediate future i think i am moving back from the suburbs to detroit. i havent lived there since high school. it'll be with the friend mentioned above. that will rock. and make my plans getting put on hold because of money pretty bearable, if not totally worth it. right on.
i cant say there's been many times in my life where things that seem negative or like hurdles totally make sense. maybe i'm just on a high from graduating, but even though none of it is by my plan i can still see the plan. i think i had too many cupcakes for breakfast.

it's a really weird time right now.

p.s. i *love* my tattoo guy, not for his work but because he's one of the squarest, dead-on take no bullshit people i've met in a long time.

p.p.s i still miss the mexicans. hmpf.