saturn1

whoa ... weird. i came home last night and there was a million cops in my neighborhood, so i went for a walk to see what was going on. i'm walking past my friend's old house... i thought her family moved a long time ago, but i see who i think is her sister standing outside so i start yelling her name, but instead it was my friend. this girl used to be my partner in crime. neither one of us grew up in this neighborhood... it's towns away from where we did used to live, so it was really random that we ran into each other & after so long... just strange.

i've been sort of sad about what seems like the loss of a different friend. it was my choice, maybe hers too, though i'm not sure she chooses anything in her life. she just sort of acts out and then reacts to people's reactions to her. i feel bad that i cant help her, i been where she is right now mentally/emotionally, but she's sort of in the place in her life right now where she refuses to listen to anyone's advice or really look at what the problems are, so i give up. i need to take care of myself and not feel bad all the time because of situations she produces. i got my own fuckin issues and i need people in my life reciprocate w/ what i give.

so anyways, it was cool to see an old friend after all of that... i lived with this girl and her two million sisters in texas when i ran away from home... we've probably lost a few of our 9 lives together, been nearly attacked a few times and somehow gotten out of it, been on more than a few roadtrips and more than couple really crazy situations. she was asking me about people i hadn't thought about in years. it's nice to keep connections with people that go far back.

this whole week has been about hearing from people from the past, people i've missed and people i don't even really remember... and one really foine indian boy who can teach me about kama sutra and whatever else he wants.... haaa...

someone please get me this, it's rad.