saturn1

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i'm serious when i say you're beautiful.

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i can't sleep. i am fucking tired. but i keep having the things where you're between sleep and consciousness and you start to dream fucked up dreams, or not even get that far & start to think fucked up thoughts and see fucked up things, but you have total loss of control over your body. like, you need to get up to protect yourself from something or to wake yourself up to stop dreaming or whateverinthehell stage you're in of fuckedupthoughtivity but you can't? i just kept trying to move my arms and i couldn't, but my eyes were open and i could look around my room. total paralysis. i don't know why i get those ....whatever they are....but i hate them. so i'm awake.

ebay is the devil. i am broke but now i have some prada shoes, two laptop bags and fiber photo paper. i was broke before this incident, but thoroughly enjoying being at home + cleaning + ebay. go figure.