saturdayallday

since i don't have an online journal thingy im going to start using this. i'm in college now. i love the atmosphere, however i am still searching for my place. i thought by now i people would have started to open up but that isn't the case. no bonding whatsoever has occured in my suite. i've stopped trying. im tired of always making an effort! so i just put the extra time into my studies. it's hard going from being the girl who practically ran the school to being just another face in the crowd. i think i need to inquire more about the entertainment coucil.

tonight i went to see mars volta in sac. they cancelled (bartender at club made racial suggestion which pissed band off so they left) the ride home was fun. tim, cole, christina, rachel, and i played sex. i was naked and didn't even care. it was great! i remember playing a couple years ago and freaking out. once we were all naked tim got the girls to kiss. a whimpy kiss but still... i wish it were me. i think tim was trying to build up to that. and i wonder if he made me sit in the back for my satisfaction or to be considerate to little cole??