satsujin

There's a harvest each saturday night
At the bars filled with perfume and hitching a ride
A place you can stand for one night and get gone
It's clear this conversation ain't' doing a thing
Cause these boys only listen to me when i sing
And i don't feel like singing tonight
All the same songs

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
Nothing here to hold on to
Could i hold you?

The situation's always the same
You got your wolves in their clothes whispering Hollywood's name
Stealing gold from the silver they see
But it's not me

Here in these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could i hold you?

Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading away
Am i gone?
Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading

In these deep city lights
Girl could get lost tonight
I'm finding every reason to be gone
There's nothing here to hold on to
Could i hold on to you?

-Sara B
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Depression is a new and frightening thing. It is a rare form that I cannot bounce back from, and all of the energy I have is drained away into worry and doubt. I feel like my life has turned into an emotional seasaw, yo-yoing back and forth on some unpredictable rollercoaster ride, that I am not tall enough to qualify for.

When am I finally going to grow up? And maybe realize that the youth I tried to take back isn't all beds of roses.