The last thing I wrote was overwrought, overthought, and generally not very good. When in the moment honesty breaks down into exagerated recollections that eventually amount between a poor mix of truth and sensationalism, it's generally just bad.
So, among other things, I've found out that I have been mistaken for the past few months, and that I do not have the parental support that I thought that I did, and things like, "Do what you think will make you happy, because that is what's most important (within these bounds)." does not really mean that at all. In a life where the constant fear of disappointing has pervaded deep in my mind, it is disconcerting, at the least, to find that the remission of these expectations is only a facade. Deeply saddening.
Which is why I'm not at home today.
In retrospect, I think I actually just "ran away" from home. I hope that's okay?
So as to provide at least a moment of levity in an otherwise bleak (and very clich) day:
So, among other things, I've found out that I have been mistaken for the past few months, and that I do not have the parental support that I thought that I did, and things like, "Do what you think will make you happy, because that is what's most important (within these bounds)." does not really mean that at all. In a life where the constant fear of disappointing has pervaded deep in my mind, it is disconcerting, at the least, to find that the remission of these expectations is only a facade. Deeply saddening.
Which is why I'm not at home today.
In retrospect, I think I actually just "ran away" from home. I hope that's okay?
So as to provide at least a moment of levity in an otherwise bleak (and very clich) day:
You gonna be there Thursday to help run the boat?
i really fucking hope you make it, so have a safe drive and ill see you thursday wether you make it to the boat or not. YOU DONT HAVE A CHOICE!!!!!
IM TOO LAZY TO TURN OFF CAPS, SO DEAL WITH IT. START THE QC GROUP, ILL JOIN FOR SURE BECAUSE THAT WOULD JUST BE COOL. ALSO, IM A NERD. SO THAT HELPS.
LATER BITCH