satansangel

bleh work. I'm burned out. Same old stuff just on a different day. Need to find a reason to want to work other than to pay bills......

I'm moved, and finally have internet! I've felt so disconnected from the world over the last 3 weeks. I moved completely by myself, got the house settled all by myself, and have done it all by myself. just me and the two dogs. I miss the companionship of her, but I don't really miss her, and I feel horrible for it. 3 1/2 years to...
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found a place! it's a cute 4 small 4 bedroom house. I'm excited to be starting over on my own again, but hating the idea of moving. Why can't there be a button you press and boom, all of your things are neatly placed in your new home, like you've always lived there. I don't know I'm kind of looking forward to arranging everything and...
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it is done. now to find a place to live

we talked it out and life is good. Just got our shifts back and for the first time in 6 months we will have a day off together each week! I can't wait!!!

I'm pretty sure this is the beginning of the end of my relationship. Who knows, it was a good run for the most part. *snffle*

Tomorrow is my birthday and I have to work. I think they are planning something, and I am scared. I'm tempted to call out, but that would look bad....

I really don't care a lot about my bday. Most years things go wrong on that day so it's pointless to get excited. This year, I would be happy with a few nice cards.

When will I quit thinking about a future with a family of my own. When will my mood swings stop? I feel like a fucking yo yo most days. *sigh* I have no idea what I'm going to do to fix feeling like shit like this, but something has to work. I've fixed myself before it's time to do it again.

babies everywhere! My sister had her baby Issac Antonia Pelayo born on Aug. 30th at 7:40 in the morning. 6 lb 1 oz and handsome! Then my girlfriends sister had her baby yesterday Sept. 1st, at 6 pm 7 lb 12 oz, Maria Grace Baxter (I think baxter, not sure if they gave her mommy or daddy's last name). She is so pretty, with a...
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my little sister is having her baby today! I wish I could be in California to be able to be there with her! I will keep posts updated as things go on!!