so ya im not happy....dont know why, dont really care to know why, but im definately not happy. i hate my life.... 
im done worrying about the whole jackass thing. i still think about him and all but its not quite so consuming and im not hurt by it all the time. So just to let all you guys know, im okay. just school and work keeping me insanely busy. wish me luck with that!
stgeorge:
Good luck!! 
javacat:
the best, as always
well he's gone, and all i got as a good bye was its been fun getting to know you the past few weeks and a pat on the back. im trying to stay upbeat and moving, because as long as i keep moving i dont have time to think about how sad i am. this is why i dont get into relationships, or things such...
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stgeorge:
You just make sure that smile is never too far away petal! There's plenty of us that care about you and don't like to see you being treated like this, you deserve so much better! Just remember it's the other blokes loss, you're a princess, and a very adorable one too.
so he's leaving tomorrow well actually today. and tonight we all went out to the bar as a farwell thing, he literally ignored me all night, like i thought everything was okay again, we had a really good night wed. night, but he left me alone at the table, all night long, so i spent it talking to a bunch of people i didnt know...
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ojaeflo:
Doesn't sound like he's worth ANY goodbye. 
I'm sorry, babe.
I'm sorry, babe.
javacat:
you deserved so much better from this loser. i know you may not feel it now but you're better off that he's gone. i'm sorry it ended like this for you. pisses me off! 
i think he's trying to distance himself, he hasnt really cuddled with me and we havent had sex for the past two nights, he's just being kinda weird towards me, i guess thats the way it needs to be though any opinions??
stgeorge:
Sounds to me too like he doesn't want to know really, much as it pains my to say it. You deserve to be treated so much better.
javacat:
my first reaction is: this guy's a loser and it's his loss.
second reaction is: this guy's still a loser and it's his loss.
but, upon thoughful reflection (yes, your sex life does provide opportunity for reflection...thank you for that), it may be his way of dealing with letting go. we all do it in different ways and, while his may be insensitive and awkward, it may be the only way he knows to let you go.
good luck to you. you deserve good things.
second reaction is: this guy's still a loser and it's his loss.
but, upon thoughful reflection (yes, your sex life does provide opportunity for reflection...thank you for that), it may be his way of dealing with letting go. we all do it in different ways and, while his may be insensitive and awkward, it may be the only way he knows to let you go.
good luck to you. you deserve good things.
so i've spent the past two weeks practically straight with this guy. staying at his place over night a lot, not being home at all really. But he's leaving friday for denver, to move there, and im trying really hard to be a big kid, and not act like him and i had more than what we do, i feel like he sees it as...
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stgeorge:
How could he leave a woman of your delectible charms eh? Beyond me 
Hope you're feeling alright petal
Hope you're feeling alright petal
javacat:
Hang in there. Appreciate the time you had together -- sounds as though you have -- and try to stay positive. someone as lovely in all ways as you won't be alone for long.
and good luck to your denver-bound friend. i hope he manages to make you happy from afar.
and good luck to your denver-bound friend. i hope he manages to make you happy from afar.
jesus christ i do up some nice new photos, and want to use one in my profile pic, and it comes out all distorted. grrr...im off to go fix it, but while im doing that enjoy my new pics, they are stashed in the boredom and loneliness file...enjoy
okay im tired of fucking with it....want to see the better version check out my pics in...
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javacat:
very cute, very sexxy set.
you look like you're doing real well.
you look like you're doing real well.
stgeorge:
The pics look fantastic dear...well the subject is beautiful
sophie:
thank you so much! i'm really stoked you liked my set and video!
the snake is too pretty!
the snake is too pretty!
stgeorge:
Does look indeed great 
Hope you're doing well petal
Hope you're doing well petal
amongst the stress and craziness i have become somthing that men want again. not to sound like a whore or anything but after a long drought, i have finally become the vixen that i am again, starting with sat. night where this guy i had liked for a while was partying with me and some friends, he came home with me we had a good...
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javacat:
hey, sultry vixen -- good for you! you deserve some fun.
i am jealous. happy for you but jealous nonetheless.
i am jealous. happy for you but jealous nonetheless.
welcome to my emmotional roller coaster, so i got $5,500.00 in loans for the school year,my classes are $2,652.00 a semester, now where does that leave me room to buy books, it doesnt, and i've gone to part time, so until i get a second loan in i cant pay my bills. so they gave me enough cash to go to school, but not enough...
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ojaeflo:
Buck up, little camper.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
javacat:
how much are books? can you get them used? can you appeal to your professors? perhaps they can help.
admittedly, some simplistic best case scenarios but might be worth pursuing if all else fails.
don't give up. you are soclose!!!!
admittedly, some simplistic best case scenarios but might be worth pursuing if all else fails.
don't give up. you are soclose!!!!
It sounds like you've got some wicked friends who've organised a splendid b-day treat for you.
I wish I could rewind time and go through my first E-xperience again, it was sooo lovely.
Enjoy