satansangel

What the hell have I gotten myself into? Am I retarded to have let my weekend fun cost me my job even though it was never interfering with my ability to perform my job and was never anything that I did while at work? Where do I go from here? Sure I quit before they could fire me. Sure I've sent out 20 job applications, but what have I done seriously..... Is this going to be a new liberating portion of my life, will this be the first time I regret the choices that I have made, how long until I pull out of this funk I'm in. When will I wake up without the softball sized knot in my stomach. when will I start feeling normal again and not like I'm in some surreal dreamland waiting to wake up. I feel like I'm moving so slowly and the world is moving at light speed. It's almost like I'm watching my life from the outside right now, as a bystander. I have never lived my life this way wish I could figure out why I'm allowing it to happen this time. Today makes a week and I think I'm still in shock.... 6 years and a management position out the winder in a matter of minutes. All based on lies.