satansangel

I don't understand why some things have to be so difficult. I love Jenna, I want nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with her, but sometimes I feel like the simplest things become so complicated. Like vacation this year. I wanted to do something a little different so I suggested that we go do the outer banks. It's a really nice area with lots of stuff to go do, with gorgeous beaches, that isn't too crazy commercial. Jenna seemed apprehensive about it from the start, I guess because she hadn't been there before. Then we start looking at hotels and I feel like every idea that I have is shot down because it isn't exactly what she wants. So I tell her to go ahead and look for hotels and let me know, and I will go along with it. and now it has blown up into such a huge deal, that we ended up fighting, and I was just like fuck vacation. It's all so juvenile. Then I really started thinking about things, and yesterday she really did something that pissed me off, and we never had time to talk about it. I would bring it up to her now, but she has left to go get food and I have to leave for work in 15 minutes. I just want things to be simple but nothing feels like it is. I just want us to have an awesome vacation, and I'm scared that by me picking the spot that she may hate it, and I don't want her to hate it. I would feel so responsible for us having a potentially bad vacation....who knows. I need to get ready to leave for work.