i survived christmas, whoo hoo....i now know why i dont spend a lot of time with my family, they drive me up the wall. they are incredibly loud people. for some reason my mother and my sister never learned the difference between inside and ouitside voices. I guess they never watched sesame street like i did growing up. It was great to see my little brother, dear god he is getting so tall!! My sister annoyed the living hell out of me, if i had to take another day of hearing about the airforce, i was going to kill her. She just would not stop, it was so bad i wasn't sure if she was even breathing while she was talking. Mom even offered to pay her to shut up at one point. She makes it sound like it's a paid vacation, and she's going into the "intelligence" fielld. She's going to be doing briefings for missions and such, she makes it sound hard, but really when she broke it down she's going to be making presentations. I personally do not feel that it seems to terribly difficult, and when i pointed that out she got rather pissed. My family treats her like she is the golden child now and that alone pisses me off. She's the one who almost didnt graduate high school, couldnt get into college because she had such a low gpa, and was constantly borrowing money from my folks, even though she had a good paying job and was living at home. She's also the one who has used and abused my parents, and now she's gone into the airforce and my parents treat her like she's a fucking saint, and has always been one. Which leaves me feeling once again like the loser child of the family. Enough negativity though. Jenna and I are doing great, spending a few days apart from her made me realize just how much more i love her. She also got me a spectacular xmas gift. She got me a four in one, record player, three disc cd changer, casette, radio player, the nice ones that come in a really pretty dark wooden box, thats shaped like that old school record players, its sooooo awesome i cant wait to get it hooked up. I've also quit my job, which im not sure how i feel about it just yet. I took out additional student loans to be able to cover my living expenses, I just want to take my last semester of school and chill out, focus on school and enjoy life. This is a long one, I hope no one gets too bored reading this. I hope everyone had a happy holiday, and that all is well ! 