satansangel

and the fun stops....i'm not sure what to do anymore, my depression is creeping back, and things between jenna and i are not so perfect anymore. She's trying to quit drinking, but is having a hard time coping with being sober. Me, I'm sleeping when she wants me awake because Im so busy between school work and her. On mwf's im in bed at 4a.m and up by 8:30 in the morning, and going all day long until 2 am when she gets home from work, so when i pass out at three am and she wants to spend time with me it makes things difficult. and we are both frustrated because i'm trying so hard to make this work, but i feel like there is enough communication between us. and i've been crying on and off all night tonight because i feel like i'm screwing things up. there has to be a balance somewhere i just need to figure out where. and i dont know how to help her to deal. she told me tonight that she doesnt feel like she has any support in her going sober. which i feel i support her, but i do still go out and drink a couple times a week. but she wont tell me that she needs my support until now, when she wants me to pick her up a 6 pack. and i want so badly to support her, but i dont think the support should begin with me condoning her lapse. i'm just so confused. because god dammit i love her, and i havent told her, because there hasnt been a good moment long enough lately for me to say it. and im so used to being able to fix things, so this is a huge turn around, because i dont know how to fix it. help.....