satansangel

wednesday night i thought about suicide, thursday morning i wrote robyn an email, basically saying goodbye etc. thursday afternoon i called my mom i was a complete wreck. thursday i went to class, then to work, feeling a little better, then i went to the bar. at the bar i got drunk which is a little odd for me i usually dont drink enough to be technically drunk, but that night i was. towards the end of the night a cop comes up to me, verifies my name, and asks to speak with me. she said she had read my email to robyn, and my online journal, and that she was concerned for me. they forced me to see a consoler. i was escorted out of the bar by two cops. and taken to see a shrink at two in the morning. i think they wanted to commit me, but i wouldnt let them. robyn had called the magistrate, and then the police to pick me up, because she was scared for me. its all still fuzzy in a way even now. but it was a needed wakeup call i think. so i now have phone numbers and etc. to get serious help. its been a crazy two days. but i think i'll be okay.