so he's leaving tomorrow well actually today. and tonight we all went out to the bar as a farwell thing, he literally ignored me all night, like i thought everything was okay again, we had a really good night wed. night, but he left me alone at the table, all night long, so i spent it talking to a bunch of people i didnt know...
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i think he's trying to distance himself, he hasnt really cuddled with me and we havent had sex for the past two nights, he's just being kinda weird towards me, i guess thats the way it needs to be though any opinions??
stgeorge:
Sounds to me too like he doesn't want to know really, much as it pains my to say it. You deserve to be treated so much better.
javacat:
my first reaction is: this guy's a loser and it's his loss.
second reaction is: this guy's still a loser and it's his loss.
but, upon thoughful reflection (yes, your sex life does provide opportunity for reflection...thank you for that), it may be his way of dealing with letting go. we all do it in different ways and, while his may be insensitive and awkward, it may be the only way he knows to let you go.
good luck to you. you deserve good things.
second reaction is: this guy's still a loser and it's his loss.
but, upon thoughful reflection (yes, your sex life does provide opportunity for reflection...thank you for that), it may be his way of dealing with letting go. we all do it in different ways and, while his may be insensitive and awkward, it may be the only way he knows to let you go.
good luck to you. you deserve good things.
so i've spent the past two weeks practically straight with this guy. staying at his place over night a lot, not being home at all really. But he's leaving friday for denver, to move there, and im trying really hard to be a big kid, and not act like him and i had more than what we do, i feel like he sees it as...
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stgeorge:
How could he leave a woman of your delectible charms eh? Beyond me 
Hope you're feeling alright petal
Hope you're feeling alright petal
javacat:
Hang in there. Appreciate the time you had together -- sounds as though you have -- and try to stay positive. someone as lovely in all ways as you won't be alone for long.
and good luck to your denver-bound friend. i hope he manages to make you happy from afar.
and good luck to your denver-bound friend. i hope he manages to make you happy from afar.
jesus christ i do up some nice new photos, and want to use one in my profile pic, and it comes out all distorted. grrr...im off to go fix it, but while im doing that enjoy my new pics, they are stashed in the boredom and loneliness file...enjoy
okay im tired of fucking with it....want to see the better version check out my pics in...
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javacat:
very cute, very sexxy set.
you look like you're doing real well.
you look like you're doing real well.
stgeorge:
The pics look fantastic dear...well the subject is beautiful
sophie:
thank you so much! i'm really stoked you liked my set and video!
the snake is too pretty!
the snake is too pretty!
stgeorge:
Does look indeed great 
Hope you're doing well petal
Hope you're doing well petal
amongst the stress and craziness i have become somthing that men want again. not to sound like a whore or anything but after a long drought, i have finally become the vixen that i am again, starting with sat. night where this guy i had liked for a while was partying with me and some friends, he came home with me we had a good...
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javacat:
hey, sultry vixen -- good for you! you deserve some fun.
i am jealous. happy for you but jealous nonetheless.
i am jealous. happy for you but jealous nonetheless.
welcome to my emmotional roller coaster, so i got $5,500.00 in loans for the school year,my classes are $2,652.00 a semester, now where does that leave me room to buy books, it doesnt, and i've gone to part time, so until i get a second loan in i cant pay my bills. so they gave me enough cash to go to school, but not enough...
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ojaeflo:
Buck up, little camper.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
javacat:
how much are books? can you get them used? can you appeal to your professors? perhaps they can help.
admittedly, some simplistic best case scenarios but might be worth pursuing if all else fails.
don't give up. you are soclose!!!!
admittedly, some simplistic best case scenarios but might be worth pursuing if all else fails.
don't give up. you are soclose!!!!
omg, i have not woken up and started remembering such awesome and fucked up dreams in my life. given some were dreams i'd had before but some were just beyond what i thought my brain would ever think of. at one point in the dream i was a hitman, and i had just recieved new guns in the mail, i believe they were desert eagles,...
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javacat:
wow! i'm tired just reading it.
and scared. very scared.
and scared. very scared.
so i met a guy online last night, and we hit it off perfectly. first conversation that i've been able to have with a complete stranger in a long time that didnt end in them wanting to have sex with me. it was refreshing, and he called me today and we talked on the phone for a little while, he seems like a pretty decent...
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javacat:
well said. i don't get some people's priorities.
anyway, be careful of guys online. except me of course. i'm great. but OTHER guys online -- just be cautious!
anyway, be careful of guys online. except me of course. i'm great. but OTHER guys online -- just be cautious!
so im really freaked out because as of monday i may not be a student, financial aid has been dragging their ass, and not processed my fin. aid, so student accounts may yank my classes from me as of monday, which would give me exactly five days to try and get fin. aid cleared, and get readmitted to my classes. so monday is going to...
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javacat:
have just gone through something similar with my son. however, i found that financial aid counselors generally go out of their way to be helpful. it also helps if you're a transfer student or some other non-traditional student. they have staff just for non-traditional students and if you can fit in there at all, you'll get some special treatment. good luck!
stgeorge:
Well got everything crossed for you on Monday then! 
Hope it all turns out well
Hope it all turns out well
hi everybody, its been awhile im sorry, i've been super busy trying to figure out how to go to school and still support myself. its insane what the world requires and expects of you. you are expected to have a good job, and you cant do that without an education, and educations cost money, which you need to have a job to support, and education...
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javacat:
an awful circle, for sure. but most of us get through it eventually. you will too.
anyway, nice to see you posting again. don't be a stranger.
anyway, nice to see you posting again. don't be a stranger.
stgeorge:
I'm sure you'll find time to enjoy it when you've got there. Just glad you're getting somewhere
So i had a complete and total mental breakdown tonight, making me realize that my misery has been caused by my lack of taking an active part in how my life runs from day to day, and how going through the motions is truly not enough for anybody. Therefore after a long talk w/my dad tonight and him asking me what I want, I've decided...
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stgeorge:
Good luck with the new venture in life. I hope it all works out well. I don't like seeing any of my friends unhappy and down. I'm sure you'll soon be smiling more often again. Have to sort something out for you on the SG front, especially as it gives you pleasure, can't see you going without dear.
javacat:
Congrats on the self realization. It is liberating, isn't it? As for the SG subscription, maybe we can work something out. You have friends and fans here who would miss you very much. Let's chat. Meanwhile, enjoy the next step.
I'm sorry, babe.