Ohhhhh man. I have one hell of a hangover.
Anyways... Last night I had this conversation with a friend who consistently bitches about money, despite the fact that her parents always hand it to her whenever she asks. As her friend, I kindly told her that she needs to stop talking to everyone about how poor she is, and cited the fact that right now I'm not doing so hot financially and don't have the same kind of security blanket.
Instead of her comprehending properly, I just got this long ass rant about how I'm condescending... How in fuck's name is citing that you're poor and saying it's annoying to hear a rich girl act like she's poor condescending? My financial situation doesn't make me beter than everyone else, it makes shit more trying. That'd be like saying, "Yeah, hey, I've had to dumpster dive for food" and having someone bitch to me saying that because their parents take them out to expensive restaurants that I'm acting like I'm the flaming shit of timbuktu. It just doesn't make any sense.
Granted, my parents have helped me out in the past, but I'm 23 now, and I can no longer rely on that. I have student loans and credit cards to pay off. I'm on unemployment because the corporation I worked for downsized. I'm on food stamps because my cash assets qualify me for the poverty level. This economy fucking blows, and it'll get better somday (one can only hope), but it's not easy for anyone.
I don't even know why this bitch stressed me out so much. Mainly I think it's because I put my faith in her as a friend, and now that I realize a lot of things are going well for me right now (outside of money), I've kinda realized that I put my faith in the wrong types of people. Once I started paying attention, I saw how much this person caused drama. She places herself in the middle of people and then feeds them shit if one person gets pissed off, then turns around and talks shit to the other person involved. She does this in the name of trying to "please" everyone, but in the end, it just ends up fucking shit up. I lost a good friend due to this very behavior and it didn't make sense as to why she told me to fuck off until I started paying attention. I'm just really fucking disappointed.
Sigh.
I really wish that we lived in a world where people were free of passive aggressive tendencies, a need to foster drama, and a desire to be on top. If we could all just fucking get along and put our petty bullshit aside, we'd be much better off. Unfortunately, human nature dictates that this is a fairly impossible prospect. Humans are greedy, selfish, and operate in viral patterns in regards to their resource consumption. "Innocence" is a concept that doesn't bear much weight, rather, corruption rules.
So fuck it, I'll be condescending, if that is indeed what I am. If you make an idiot out of yourself, I'll let you know. And if you're a good friend, I'll treat you like gold. Good friends consist of a few primary traits... Honesty, loyalty, integrity, drive, an ability to listen, and the ability to communicate well. Without those, you're just another piece of shit. I lost my faith in people a long time ago, but recently I've found that if you look hard enough, you'll find those types of people. I have my girlfriend and she's amazing. I have cool roommates. I also have some great coworkers. Most of all, I have happiness, but it's still hard to let loose the ties of faith I placed in shitty friends for some reason.
Oh well. Who wants to get drunk and have a water gun fight?
Oh yeah... Go check out the magazine I started: http://www.myspace.com/inclinationmag
Anyways... Last night I had this conversation with a friend who consistently bitches about money, despite the fact that her parents always hand it to her whenever she asks. As her friend, I kindly told her that she needs to stop talking to everyone about how poor she is, and cited the fact that right now I'm not doing so hot financially and don't have the same kind of security blanket.
Instead of her comprehending properly, I just got this long ass rant about how I'm condescending... How in fuck's name is citing that you're poor and saying it's annoying to hear a rich girl act like she's poor condescending? My financial situation doesn't make me beter than everyone else, it makes shit more trying. That'd be like saying, "Yeah, hey, I've had to dumpster dive for food" and having someone bitch to me saying that because their parents take them out to expensive restaurants that I'm acting like I'm the flaming shit of timbuktu. It just doesn't make any sense.
Granted, my parents have helped me out in the past, but I'm 23 now, and I can no longer rely on that. I have student loans and credit cards to pay off. I'm on unemployment because the corporation I worked for downsized. I'm on food stamps because my cash assets qualify me for the poverty level. This economy fucking blows, and it'll get better somday (one can only hope), but it's not easy for anyone.
I don't even know why this bitch stressed me out so much. Mainly I think it's because I put my faith in her as a friend, and now that I realize a lot of things are going well for me right now (outside of money), I've kinda realized that I put my faith in the wrong types of people. Once I started paying attention, I saw how much this person caused drama. She places herself in the middle of people and then feeds them shit if one person gets pissed off, then turns around and talks shit to the other person involved. She does this in the name of trying to "please" everyone, but in the end, it just ends up fucking shit up. I lost a good friend due to this very behavior and it didn't make sense as to why she told me to fuck off until I started paying attention. I'm just really fucking disappointed.
Sigh.
I really wish that we lived in a world where people were free of passive aggressive tendencies, a need to foster drama, and a desire to be on top. If we could all just fucking get along and put our petty bullshit aside, we'd be much better off. Unfortunately, human nature dictates that this is a fairly impossible prospect. Humans are greedy, selfish, and operate in viral patterns in regards to their resource consumption. "Innocence" is a concept that doesn't bear much weight, rather, corruption rules.
So fuck it, I'll be condescending, if that is indeed what I am. If you make an idiot out of yourself, I'll let you know. And if you're a good friend, I'll treat you like gold. Good friends consist of a few primary traits... Honesty, loyalty, integrity, drive, an ability to listen, and the ability to communicate well. Without those, you're just another piece of shit. I lost my faith in people a long time ago, but recently I've found that if you look hard enough, you'll find those types of people. I have my girlfriend and she's amazing. I have cool roommates. I also have some great coworkers. Most of all, I have happiness, but it's still hard to let loose the ties of faith I placed in shitty friends for some reason.
Oh well. Who wants to get drunk and have a water gun fight?
Oh yeah... Go check out the magazine I started: http://www.myspace.com/inclinationmag