spent my day second hand shopping after going for some wicked sushi.wish i had more money to have spent at VV!..can't wait to get to van for some shoe shopping!!!.
oh my back is killing me. i desperately need an hour long or more massage!!!
had a myspace friend stay over for the weekend.managed to not be a cheap internet slut.lol.it seems that i have this fucked up way of viewing sex.if it's just sex and nothing emotional or anything then i can have a fling with someone just fine.but if it's even remotely emotional or could turn emotional. then i wont sleep with the person right away.and then all my issues come out of hiding.blah.
and then i start that whole.should i not bother with this person, cause i didnt fall madly inlove with them in one night.but then i find them attractive and nice among other things.so then i kill myself wondering, if maybe love is something that grows after hanging out for a bit?..but i've always thought it should be me knowing right away! that this person is making me spark.smile and scaring the hell out of me. but i'm thrilled at the same time....thats how i base my love'em and/or leave'em habit on.if i dont feel that little thrill right away i pretty much write the person off.and then i torture myself wondering if i'm being fair to myself and the other person.that maybe if i give it time i'll fall for them.
what do you guys think?
oh my back is killing me. i desperately need an hour long or more massage!!!
had a myspace friend stay over for the weekend.managed to not be a cheap internet slut.lol.it seems that i have this fucked up way of viewing sex.if it's just sex and nothing emotional or anything then i can have a fling with someone just fine.but if it's even remotely emotional or could turn emotional. then i wont sleep with the person right away.and then all my issues come out of hiding.blah.
and then i start that whole.should i not bother with this person, cause i didnt fall madly inlove with them in one night.but then i find them attractive and nice among other things.so then i kill myself wondering, if maybe love is something that grows after hanging out for a bit?..but i've always thought it should be me knowing right away! that this person is making me spark.smile and scaring the hell out of me. but i'm thrilled at the same time....thats how i base my love'em and/or leave'em habit on.if i dont feel that little thrill right away i pretty much write the person off.and then i torture myself wondering if i'm being fair to myself and the other person.that maybe if i give it time i'll fall for them.
what do you guys think?
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that is the thing i hated about wearing watches. i would check mine all the time. however, if someone asked me what time it was, i would have to look..... even if i just did 30 secs ago!!!
without one, my clock is alot better.
i do need a clock at work though.... i try to run on time all the time!!