My life never ceases to amaze me at how quickly it can change!
So Tim, the most recent guy I was going on dates with, seemed pretty promising. When I last posted, I was still trying to get a feel for where I was at; trying to figure out how much I liked him. But nevertheless, it seemed like a sure bet - he was sending me definite signs of interest! So I thought it was pretty much a guaranteed thing that was there if I wanted it...well, I either read the signs totally wrong, or he just needs to get his shit together. We finally kissed, then there were a few more instances where we went out with friends or it was just the two of us. Either way, we were close during these "dates". Well, the last time we hung out, the night ended with kind of a weird feel to it...almost like, "ok, i'm bored with you, you can go home now". So I didn't have any inclination to call the next day. Went out to lunch with my friend, who asked me how things were with Tim. I replied "eh...I dunno" and she goes "well that's good." So I tell her to spill, and she basically says that she heard that Tim didn't want anything serious, and that she thinks he may even be keeping in touch with his clingy ex-girlfriend. So I decided to stay away from that mess, which happened like a week and a half ago. It's like he knew she told me that, cause he hasn't called, and I haven't called him. WELL....I've been over at his house a few times since for parties and such (my friend's brother lives with him) and yes, his ex-girlfriend has been there, and spending the night I think! And what's more is I used to go to high school with her, and we've been chatting it up like old buds at his house, so she obviously doesn't know anything has happened between me and him. Which is fine, he's apparently not worth my time. But the thing that gets me is that he won't even look at me. No eye contact whatsoever, not even an acknowledgement that I'm there. What an ass. At least it's painfully obvious that he's ashamed of himself.
MEANWHILE....Jeff (see several entries ago) and I did some makin' out the other night, and managed to come to terms that we were both mutual asshats to each other, and should be friends. Even if we are the kinda friends who make out sometimes. That's okay.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand, I am finding myself developing a mad crush on someone lately, but I am trying to discourage myself from doing so, because it's really impractical and never going to happen. But MAN...it's way hard.
I find it kind of weird/lame that I am basing all of my recent journal updates on boy news, but seeing as how all other aspects of my life are still boring, I figure that's all I've got.
So Tim, the most recent guy I was going on dates with, seemed pretty promising. When I last posted, I was still trying to get a feel for where I was at; trying to figure out how much I liked him. But nevertheless, it seemed like a sure bet - he was sending me definite signs of interest! So I thought it was pretty much a guaranteed thing that was there if I wanted it...well, I either read the signs totally wrong, or he just needs to get his shit together. We finally kissed, then there were a few more instances where we went out with friends or it was just the two of us. Either way, we were close during these "dates". Well, the last time we hung out, the night ended with kind of a weird feel to it...almost like, "ok, i'm bored with you, you can go home now". So I didn't have any inclination to call the next day. Went out to lunch with my friend, who asked me how things were with Tim. I replied "eh...I dunno" and she goes "well that's good." So I tell her to spill, and she basically says that she heard that Tim didn't want anything serious, and that she thinks he may even be keeping in touch with his clingy ex-girlfriend. So I decided to stay away from that mess, which happened like a week and a half ago. It's like he knew she told me that, cause he hasn't called, and I haven't called him. WELL....I've been over at his house a few times since for parties and such (my friend's brother lives with him) and yes, his ex-girlfriend has been there, and spending the night I think! And what's more is I used to go to high school with her, and we've been chatting it up like old buds at his house, so she obviously doesn't know anything has happened between me and him. Which is fine, he's apparently not worth my time. But the thing that gets me is that he won't even look at me. No eye contact whatsoever, not even an acknowledgement that I'm there. What an ass. At least it's painfully obvious that he's ashamed of himself.
MEANWHILE....Jeff (see several entries ago) and I did some makin' out the other night, and managed to come to terms that we were both mutual asshats to each other, and should be friends. Even if we are the kinda friends who make out sometimes. That's okay.
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand, I am finding myself developing a mad crush on someone lately, but I am trying to discourage myself from doing so, because it's really impractical and never going to happen. But MAN...it's way hard.
I find it kind of weird/lame that I am basing all of my recent journal updates on boy news, but seeing as how all other aspects of my life are still boring, I figure that's all I've got.
see by reading your journal im not sure how i should react so im just gonna put -
[Edited on May 23, 2005 7:53AM]
I got nuttin going on in that department. Sigh... Oh well.