sassitude

I've realized that instead of facing a lot of my problems, I just avoid them or put them off. This really isn't healthy. I think part of it is because I'm scared of confronting the problem, and I think that avoiding it will be easier. I think another reason is immaturity on my part. Avoiding the problem at first might be easier for awhile, but it's always harder in the long run. I just don't like confrontation, but as humans, it's impossible to avoid it.

I've also realized that I'm a very selfish person. I think for a long time, I was unwilling to admit that because I don't mean 'selfish' in a "self-absorbed, i don't care what you think" kind of way. Rather, in more of a naive sense. It's not that I don't care what other people think, it's just that I don't realize that some of my actions might affect them greatly as well. I don't stop to think how my decisions might make another person feel. This whole "avoiding the problem" thing might be a short-term solution for me, but it's not fair to leave the other person hanging like that. If it's done, it's done. If there's a problem, there's a problem. Talk about it. Ignoring phone calls and avoiding a person isn't the right way to handle it. I did that with my best friend, and I almost lost her. Lucky for me, I think we're going to be able to work things out at the end of this month. But in the future, I can't be doing that. How do I start? I suppose I'll just have to apply this realization to the next situation like this.