sassitude

I just went through weeks of no internet, thanks to the idiots at Qwest...ugh. I have completely moved back home, and it's not as huge of a difference than I thought it would be. I'm enjoying it so far, I feel less stressed out being here. I'm going to start having Fridays and Saturdays off, which makes my work life slightly better, although some days I would love nothing more than to simply say "fuck it", and walk out. I think I'm afraid of change, because there are plenty of reasons why I should quit my job right now and find another one.

I don't feel like going back to school, but I feel like when winter term comes around, I should enroll full time (or close to it) and cut my work load down dramatically. It might be nice to shift my focus onto something other than work. I feel really lost though, I have no idea what classes I want to take. At first I decided that pursuing a degree in business administration would be a good idea, since it left me several options open for a career in some sort of business management position. But the classes for that degree are SO BORING. I'm not sure I can handle such bland classes for my entire college course. I envy the people who want a career that allows them to go to a specialized school specifically for that career, such as culinary or beauty school. I mean, how nice is that? You know what you want to be, so you go to school for that, and only that. Hmm, culinary school...I could work for a catering company? That could be fun. I just wish I had a passion for something. I suppose the closest thing I have to a 'passion' lies in journalism, I've always been really interested in that. I think the only problem with that is that it might be hard to make a decent amount of money doing that...a lot of journalists just get work here and there....I'd really like to work for a magazine, but I'd probably have to move to some big, annoying city to do that.

Oh, I need direction.....life, what do you have in store for me??