sassitude

Been feeling slightly better the past few days...what I really needed was a few days off, even if i didn't do much of anything. I've got a lot of stuff to do coming up, and I think two days of doing nothing was good preperation for that. I'll have to start packing my things up soon and hauling them back to my parent's house.

I had a conversation with my parents the other day about how I felt a bit lost, and didn't really know what I wanted to do with my life. Sort of like I've hit a brick wall. I'm glad I voiced my concerns, because my dad made me feel a little better about it. Then he said something that really stuck with me... he said "I was in the same position that you are now, and then I met your mom, which changed everything. And that will happen for you too." I don't think he was referring specifically to "meeting someone who will change my life", but instead suggesting that an opportunity or something will come along and lead me in the right direction. But I thought about what he said, and then last night, I talked to my "friend" (I don't know what to call it anymore) Chris on the phone, and I found myself applying what my dad said to mine and Chris' situation. I'm not sure if something spontaneous like that is what I need, but I do know it's what I really, really want. I think the issue I've been dealing with is whether or not I feel qualified to make a really big decision in my life, since I'm still so young. I've proven myself to be quite indecisive and almost flaky at times.

In other news, I've been listening to the Hedwig soundtrack nonstop, thanks to Dave.