sarcastro

I am having a really hard time keeping it together right now. I have very little money and debts that pile well beyond my means to pay them, even on an extended basis. I should be able to get thing reasonably straight by August, if I dont suffer a nervous breakdown in the meantime.

Just when things start to show sign of improvement they cave right back in on me. I dont know how many more blows I can take.

I have to move out of Baltimore City for at least a couple of months. As great as the place is that I am moving to, I really dont want to move there (about 30 minutes south of Baltimore). I want to remain in the city. I dont want to have to give up my cats for several months. I dont really have a choice. Rent is next to nothing and its a really nice place. Ill be living with two great people and should have a good time, but its not what I want to do. Its pretty fucking demoralizing. At least Ill have air conditioning.

Finally having a label to put out our music is great and all, but it would be nice if the two guys who own it would not tell us conflicting information. Ive sacrificed a ton to be in the band and to keep it going and their miscommunications have created a lot of unnecessary stress within the band and on my finances as well.

There is no way I can afford to see X this weekend. Will they ever tour again? Sure, when I have no money. Or when I have gone deaf.

Most of all, I am lonely and I dont see that changing anytime soon. I need someone to hold, someone to hold me. All this pain and misery and nobody to share it with, what a waste.