Arrrrrghhh.... I wrote an incredibly long entry, waxing poetic about how beautiful the weather is today, and my freaking dialup crashed before I could submit it... Fucksticks.... Well, maybe it's better that I did lose it, for it was incredibly lame, but let's see if I can recreate the gist of it:
Like I said, it was a beautiful day weather-wise, and I spent my lunch break outside just walking around exploring the city and enjoying the sunshine. Today is the first day in a long time where I feel I've woken up from a very long coma. I've been in a strict routine for at least the past 3 years:
Work, Eat, Do Nothing, Sleep. Rinse. Repeat.
Today was like a slap in the face for me, and I finally feel like I need to break away from said routine before I realize I'm 50 years old and doing exactly what I did at 23. Ack. But at least I get a gold watch before they shove me out the door, right?
My mind is now frantically working overtime, formulating plans of how to climb out of this rutty hole I've managed to dig for myself. And for the first time in a long time, I don't feel trapped. I don't feel like all I've got going for me is a desk job. I finally feel like I'm ready to go try new things and get back into other things I've left behind.
Amazing what a little ray of sunshine can do to your esteem, isn't it?
Like I said, it was a beautiful day weather-wise, and I spent my lunch break outside just walking around exploring the city and enjoying the sunshine. Today is the first day in a long time where I feel I've woken up from a very long coma. I've been in a strict routine for at least the past 3 years:
Work, Eat, Do Nothing, Sleep. Rinse. Repeat.
Today was like a slap in the face for me, and I finally feel like I need to break away from said routine before I realize I'm 50 years old and doing exactly what I did at 23. Ack. But at least I get a gold watch before they shove me out the door, right?
My mind is now frantically working overtime, formulating plans of how to climb out of this rutty hole I've managed to dig for myself. And for the first time in a long time, I don't feel trapped. I don't feel like all I've got going for me is a desk job. I finally feel like I'm ready to go try new things and get back into other things I've left behind.
Amazing what a little ray of sunshine can do to your esteem, isn't it?
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jayde__:
Ruts are bad. It seems a lot of people are stuck in them lately. It's good to hear someone seems to be getting out of one. 
medusa_zombie:
i'm happy for you that you are changing things you want to change. Im in tx but, still no sunshine. Its kinda refreshing to hear good things once in awhile.