saramonster

seems like a sound plan to me. let me know whenever you feel like doing it and we can work something out. i'll email you my #, should you feel so inclined. i really wish i'd read the news articles more carefully the few days before olivia had to start taking down photos. as it stands i didn't save any, and although my favorites folder isn't as extensive as your's, i'm currently missing #1 and #3 on my Top 5 All-Time Absolute Favorites list. at least i made use of being up until 4:15 in the morning last night by sending some emails to my elected officials.


that's very good to know, seeing as how i'd have to say the same.

good notetaking

you're not bothering me...

I just remembered that you didn't drink and was confused as to why would ask about it.
Plus I don't have much of anything to say... ever since I quit my job I've hardly left the house.

I've experimented with alcohol a bit lately, it's nothing great. I didn't like that I had made a descision on something I'd never tried before, so, I tried it. Different kinds, different settings. I've concluded that, like most things, in moderation.

billy's got a maxed out credit card, he'll be back soon enough

I'll tell you about apnea later

there were troubles with a couple girls. just contact me if you want details, i got most of the answers.... i know i miss her already

-Raunchy aka Colt

sorry, this became more of a book than a comment...


yeah, same storm. i'm not sure if you caught any of the news, but there was something like 100,000 people without power last night. when i got to my destination in port washington the whole block was out. i could only see people walking around inside with flashlights. an older gentleman in tosa died after being electrocuted by some downed power lines in his back yard.

looking back i suppose that words are something i've always had a little bit of a way with. english was one of those subjects i never really gave a shit about, yet somehow managed to pull off pretty well. i aced the english portion of my ACT's and tested out of it when i got to college. as a mechanical engineering major i rarely ever have to write much of anything. i had a class about documentary films last semester where i was able to write a few papers. they turned out ok although i was mainly just rambling on to fill up space. other than that i just keep around a notebook and folder of things that i've amassed over the years that i think of as being either well done or in some other way significant. it seems as though my lack of necessity for creativity has lead to an absence of inspiration. which, similar to the passing of gloomy moods (and as i'm sure you're well aware for both), can't be forced. i still need to finish that mix tape for dyan by the way...but i digress. last night was just one of those times that a few lines came into my mind and i polished and built up and polished and so on like a pearl. that's not to imply that i think that my words are on that level, that would just be self-righteous. anyways, i'd like to write you a story...more like i hope that i can. kind of like that mix tape, i seem to have trouble with things that people ask me to come up with because of whatever they think i've done well in the past. there's a much more relevant fear of failure associated with something that's purely for the enjoyment of someone you consider a friend. i can live with a shitty grade, i can't stand to disapoint someone i have any amount of personal regard for however. i'd be more than happy to give it a try though.

-kevin rammer
a.k.a. undeserving

edited once because i should really proof read this shit before hitting "submit".

edited twice because i wanted to thank you for helping me find a way to describe something. the idea of making someone else feel, at least, "taken care of" is something that i always strive to do, but never really knew how to describe too well. i know that money really shouldn't be a primary way of showing one's affection for another person, but i never seem to think that everything else i'm doing is enough. i have a slight history of spending much more than i should on things like food and random presents. there nothing like being able to make the person you care about smile, and knowing that you have the ability to do so is an incredibly uplifting sensation. i tend to put the happiness of those i truly care for much further ahead of my own. i like to see them happy, and yeah, feel taken care of. so yeah, i just wanted to let you know that i really liked the way you put that into words.

[Edited on Sep 14, 2005 11:55PM]

[Edited on Sep 15, 2005 12:18AM]

Are you coming to a show sometime? Er..a good show?? I agree, it would be fun! Since we've all met on a porno site, we could all run around topless with a camera and have a gay ol' time..

I haven't been able to view a set in a while because of the ol' computer.. *beats computer* I want my naked women back!

I don't have a MySpace account, though I did just make a facebook one the other day. Honestly, I really don't..like it. I'm not sure..well, I understand the purpose somewhat, but.. Well, people read a profile then can't get to know you through entries (that I'm aware of). I prefer SG, of course..
MySpace looks very similar to Facebook, so I guess I'll see how this goes first? Oh, I don't know!

My friend bailed out on me again tonight.. *sigh* I think I'm going to take this as a sign. Two nights in a row?

You work in a sweatshop? Like.. You make really expensive sports shoes for Nike and get 10 cents an hour?

You and I both like talking about that sort of thing, it seems..

Autumn is my favorite time of year.. I fall in love with it everytime.

i must concur, high school was a shit fest. fortunatly though, for me at least, all the solitude and lonliness turned to introspection that lead to a level of self conciousness and awareness that yeah, i was pretty proud of. even though i still had almost zero self-cofidence or self-esteem (which is something i still struggle with) it was comforting to understand and know why it was that i felt the way i did about all things.

Hey, I just found you on SG and I think you're kinda HAWT!

a few days back you'd mentioned something about calling a place to ask about some job they'd all but promissed you, i was currious if anything came through with that.

that's an 'effing cool shirt by the way.

well that's something at least. why did you leave there before?

i just looked through your pictures and came to the conclusion that we know the same logan.

although i know what is meant by it, i've never quite understood the phrase "can't see the forest for the trees". this entry just made me think of that.

hey, did anything work out with that job?

hehe word
nice journal and such