Last winter some crazy things took up my mind and thought process. It was in my mind that I needed to get away from how I felt about everything. I am coming upon my first year anniversary of this. Somewhere in the back of my mind I am relating the way the air felt on my skin that cold morning, to those of recent mornings.. Or tomorrow morning. Yeah, sure it makes me uneasy to think about it, but nothing will happen. Nothing will happen just as long as I let it. Yet I have to take into account the factors of this previous occasion. I was very depressed, smoking a lot of pot to get away from reality, and I didn't care where I was heading. Now that I've made a few changes in my life, I feel I have a lot more confidence.
A great boyfriend, an intense subject of study, and things to look forward to when I wake up. Meeting new people everyday is such an interesting rush. Sometimes I get nervous, other times I just go with it. It's amazing such a short moment or two while cutting someone's hair can reveal so much.
In any case, I am off topic. The point is - I am greatly afraid of last winter so much, that I am trying to keep my mind off of it by spending my usual time at school, and then if there is a show at the warehouse after I am done with school - I help out. Which does not bother me very much at all - I rather enjoy the people I've met there as well. Plus, I like helping out at a musical venue for growing artists. It's great to see the variety of people that come in, and to be in that position to help them out. Moreso to help out the owner of such a great opportunity for these growing bands. Without such a great place, I doubt so many locals would have the opportunity, nor would try as hard to succeed.
Lately I've hated the early morning wakeup calls, though. Mainly just dragging my cold ass out of bed to get into the HOT shower. I haven't had the energy to do so. I think cause it's just soo cold, I just lay there and keep on falling asleep cause my bed is soooo warmmm. =P
So really I don't find it to be such a terrible issue. I just find myself over-worrying about things going soo well lately.
Me and my boyfriend are also coming on a year this coming 10th of December. I guess we're not going to do anything special, just to be together would be fine for me. Be proud of our accomplishments and dealing with each other's shit for a whole YEAR! How funny. =) Maybe we'll start gift giving after 10 years.. haha.. Let's not think about that far ahead.
On another note, I want to move to Nevada. I hear it's freaking hot there all of the time, but there's no humidity. How cool would that be? Not cool!.. HOTTTT. ;D
I could have controlled cold atmosphere in my apartment. NOTHING LIKE WINTER!!!............
I'm getting my hair done this Wednesday! Aren't you all sooo happy for me? It's because I've been doing soo well in school that I got a "good grooming" coupon. It's a day where I get pampered all day pretty much. I'm going to get my black bleached out hopefully .. and then the stupid red and pinkish shit gone.
I want all blonde. Goddamnit.
=)
A great boyfriend, an intense subject of study, and things to look forward to when I wake up. Meeting new people everyday is such an interesting rush. Sometimes I get nervous, other times I just go with it. It's amazing such a short moment or two while cutting someone's hair can reveal so much.
In any case, I am off topic. The point is - I am greatly afraid of last winter so much, that I am trying to keep my mind off of it by spending my usual time at school, and then if there is a show at the warehouse after I am done with school - I help out. Which does not bother me very much at all - I rather enjoy the people I've met there as well. Plus, I like helping out at a musical venue for growing artists. It's great to see the variety of people that come in, and to be in that position to help them out. Moreso to help out the owner of such a great opportunity for these growing bands. Without such a great place, I doubt so many locals would have the opportunity, nor would try as hard to succeed.
Lately I've hated the early morning wakeup calls, though. Mainly just dragging my cold ass out of bed to get into the HOT shower. I haven't had the energy to do so. I think cause it's just soo cold, I just lay there and keep on falling asleep cause my bed is soooo warmmm. =P
So really I don't find it to be such a terrible issue. I just find myself over-worrying about things going soo well lately.
Me and my boyfriend are also coming on a year this coming 10th of December. I guess we're not going to do anything special, just to be together would be fine for me. Be proud of our accomplishments and dealing with each other's shit for a whole YEAR! How funny. =) Maybe we'll start gift giving after 10 years.. haha.. Let's not think about that far ahead.
On another note, I want to move to Nevada. I hear it's freaking hot there all of the time, but there's no humidity. How cool would that be? Not cool!.. HOTTTT. ;D
I could have controlled cold atmosphere in my apartment. NOTHING LIKE WINTER!!!............
I'm getting my hair done this Wednesday! Aren't you all sooo happy for me? It's because I've been doing soo well in school that I got a "good grooming" coupon. It's a day where I get pampered all day pretty much. I'm going to get my black bleached out hopefully .. and then the stupid red and pinkish shit gone.
I want all blonde. Goddamnit.
=)
undeserving:
woot woot 'n shit