sarabellum

Things are getting slowly better. Yesterday Kaydee told me her mom wants to adopt my baby and that I'll still be able to see him or her. If it's a boy I might name him after his dad but I don't know. I still love Damian and I sometimes wish he would come home but at the same time I don't really care what happens to him anymore. I mean I still worry because he's homeless and alone and I'm afraid he'll get hurt or killed out there. I worry that he's hungry or cold or hurting and I want to make sure he's ok. I might send some stuff to his mom's house since his birthday is coming up if I can afford it. Mostly I want to hold him and comfort him and at the same time myself in a way. He's hurt me so much but the feeling is still there.