sarabellum

Tuseday was the best day. Damian and I went to the movies and we held each other and kissed and I was glad it was dark because while we were holding each other I cried because it was like a miracle to me to be there with him. I came so close to losing him and to know that's he was there, solid and real, not just a part of a dream that was gonna go away again when I opened my eyes, was so wonderful. But at the same time I'm walking on eggshells because the fear that he'll leave me again is lurking in the background like a tiger, just waiting. I have to hope that the tiger won't pounce on me and kill me.