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In memory of Nadia Rose. February 10th, 2007. R.I.P. Mommy misses you.

It won't be much longer now. I have about a month until my baby is due and I'm kind of scared, but I'm excited too. It's a girl and her name is going to be Nadia Rose. I didn't use a baby book I just thought of it one day. I hope that she comes out healthy, with her dad's curly hair.I miss him a...
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Baby update....

I'm in my third month and so far so good. I got my prenatal vitamins on Monday and had a checkup. The morning sickness is getting to me though. They should call it all-day sickness lol. But I'm excited. I'm gonna buy a book of names tomorrow. I plan to breastfeed because it's better for the baby. But it feels so amazing to...
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Names....

Aidan for a boy and Isabella or Rhiannon for a girl

Things are getting slowly better. Yesterday Kaydee told me her mom wants to adopt my baby and that I'll still be able to see him or her. If it's a boy I might name him after his dad but I don't know. I still love Damian and I sometimes wish he would come home but at the same time I don't really care what happens...
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1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
Single

2) Are you happy with where you are?
I'm the most unhappy I've ever been

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
I haven't met them yet

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Too many times to count.

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is OK?
There is...
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1) Ever been to a strip club? nope

2) Ever been to a bar? yes

3) Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club? nope

4) Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere? yes

5) Ever kissed someone of the same sex? Yes, I loved it

6) Ever thrown up from drinking too much? Yes

7) Ever had...
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I feel like I've lost so much

Damian being completely gone now makes things that much harder. And last night Kaydee called to see how I was doing. I'm kind of afraid because I don't know what her motives really are. I'm scared to call her because I'm afraid that something will happen. I don't really know Damian or what he can do. I don't...
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I'm screwed

I found out Monday that I'm two months pregnant. The morning sickness just got really bad and I throw up all day long. I have three weeks left to do something. I've told Damian and hopefully he'll want to be with our daughter but I don't think so. He doesn't seem to care. I haven't heard from him yet. But if he won't...
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I think I've lost the feeling

I think I'm starting to fall out of love with Damian. I tried to get over him before but he kept leaving and coming back. This time there is no coming back for him. This is the end of "us." I wish we could have loved each other the way I loved him but he wasn't ready when I...
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