i told myself today that if i make it home in one piece, that i'll spend more time learning and appreciating music, that i'll never complain about trivial things ever again, and that i'll stop drinking so much and start running more. Most of these are convictions that i feel simply because i see people here that cannot or have lost the ability to do the simple things that i have neglected or overlooked and now i feel like my whole life had been one giant barrel of potential that i've just kicked over and spilt in the gutter my whole life. i feel so embarassed after seeing what people will endure to have something that i often waste. i feel like a loser to think that i'll bitch about having to run too far when there are others that would give anything just to be able to walk.