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Friday Jul 09, 2010

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For the first time ever somebody had sex with me and I didn't feel the need to be hurt or want to be made to cry. I like feeling special. I just can't with this person, lovely as it was, amazing as it was. part of me wants it to happen over and over but I don't like hurting other ppl. And it was. I knew it had a chance of getting this way; it always seems to with me. I've said it before, but I really am like a black hole.

I'm gonna miss feeling that way during sex but he really is the beat person I know and I really really want to stay friends with him because having him in my life at all makes everything so much better. I've never felt this comfortable around someone and I don't ever want to lose that.

Love you all x x x
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norritt:
that's good i think?
Jul 9, 2010
saphyrachaos:
When I said can't I mean like shouldn't rather than not being able to feel special, if that makes sense?

I think he does understand a lot, I tell him pretty much everything and he's definitely clever enough to make sense of me. And he isn't judgemental. He even kissed the scar on my wrist rather than telling me I was ugly and embarrassing like all my exes did.

He says sometimes he's friends with people for what they can do for him, but honestly I think all of us are a bit like that, and being around him is so amazing that I don't care what reason he wants to be my friend. I love being around him. I can't wait to see him again soon smile
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