Sigh. Why does forbidden fruit taste so fucking good? And why do I always hurt the people I care about most? I did it again I think. I really am a terrible person. And I want it again.
On another note, a massive gang on people circled me and pushed me against a wall last night and tried to kiss me and stuff. All my friends are blaming me which isn't useful at all. On the plus side I didn't take any Valium after like I would have done a couple weeks ago. And I know it sounds weird but it made me feel really ugly and fat that they didn't try more when they clearly could have. Argh I know that sounds so fucked up. I really don't want to feel more triggered, I've already lost over half a stone
I'm not gonna be on here often for this month cos I'm working in a summer school and the sites blocked on the computers it sucks. I miss you guys when I'm not here.
Love you all x x x
On another note, a massive gang on people circled me and pushed me against a wall last night and tried to kiss me and stuff. All my friends are blaming me which isn't useful at all. On the plus side I didn't take any Valium after like I would have done a couple weeks ago. And I know it sounds weird but it made me feel really ugly and fat that they didn't try more when they clearly could have. Argh I know that sounds so fucked up. I really don't want to feel more triggered, I've already lost over half a stone
I'm not gonna be on here often for this month cos I'm working in a summer school and the sites blocked on the computers
it sucks. I miss you guys when I'm not here.
Love you all x x x