text) I kinda tried to teach myself how to be the perfect girlfriend.
Indeed.
I perverted myself as a kid because that's what the TV shows told me guys wanted. Guys liked latex and leather, anal sex and orgies. They didn't know how to commit and only cared for the pretty girls.
Of course I grew up. And I don't do all those things because I want to be the perfect girlfriend anymore. I would do them because I want to. All of them, except the anal bit. I might consider His ass though.
Children have a very strange sense of sexuality. I suppose the ones that never got to see people having sex didn't have much sense of the act, but I had an impression of what sex was at about age 8. I saw them do it on the screen, and on comic books, and insinuated by Madonna in one of her older glossies, before she became all about Kabbalah and other relevant commercialized modes of spirituality.
Ive always thought of writing something over what I fantasized about as a child. I think it was all very disturbing, and I doubt I was the only one out there.
I knew a pair of twins who used to blow each other. Maybe Ill write about that sometime. A short, little disturbing graphic novel about childish libidos. Have you ever thought of the alternative uses of a squiggle pen? The sort they used to advertise on TV that came in primary colours and vibrated as you wrote so your lines would turn out curly.
Would Castle on a Cloud sound like an apt title for a book like that?
xoxox
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libby:
i just like to look at the pictures. 
5alvani:
I would love to read a book about childrens libidos... there are many curious children out there... and i myself was very curious and thought I was some sort of freak til i grew up and knew it was ok and that it was nothing of the other world. And about the twins blowing each other, my friend and his best friend would give each other hand jobs when there were kids and that was something strange for me to hear some how... i cant imagine insest.....