santababy

last night was really awkward. i went over to joshs to get my mail and he is just so weird now. its like he is everything he hated when we were together. he looks like a fucking american eagle ad, which at one point in my life i wanted, but now realize bores the hell out of me. he didnt talk about anything interesting, he had no cool art to show me, he couldnt even hold a fucking conversation about cars with me. which was really sad. all he could talk about was his new crotch rocket and how he didnt have any money for the strip club boo fucking hoo. anyways, really sad to see such a creative, interesting guy turn into some normal, boring, just like everyone else asshole.
so i applaud everyone who is an individual and shake my head to those who feel they need to be part of the norm. there is nothing wrong with being interesting and ecclectic. i told josh when they real josh that i know and loved comes back to give me a call. because this new josh did nothing for me.
on a lighter note.... i ripped up the old apholstery in by car and almost stabbed myself on 41 year old german metal spiky things. but it did feel really good getting out there and working on my car. i want it to be finished sooo badly. okay well i want to go walk the lake. goodbye everyone!!!