santababy

if you only would have been honest, perhaps the hatred i feel towards you right now would not be so intense. but the choice was made to hide the facts and finding out this way was the most humilating for me. you lied, you lied, you lied to me. you did what i feared the most and to think that you were the one time i trusted.
you wonder why i never let me guard down, why i question ever step of the way, why i just cant take things for what they are. it is when i stop questioning and start trusting that the truth prevails.
so youve made your bed, you chose to lie alone or at least in the shadow of someone who will never understand the complexity at which your mind works and how you feel. someone who will never appreciate what youre good at or what truly makes you so special. she will satisfy the smallest piece of you that i couldnt.