santababy

i thought that yesterday i was having a nervous breakdown. the thoughts going on in my head were so intense and fast paced that i literally could not focus on anything around me. even the simpliest tasks seemed like they were taking all my brainpower to complete. school was an absolute waste. there were times in the day when i would blank out. the thing is i am not under that much pressure from school or family. it is self inflicted pressure that i put upon myself to do well. and unfortunately i havent been doing that well, which is why all this crap has gotten to me. anyways, i didnt go to two of my classes on tuesday. i just have no desire to sit and listen to a person when what they are saying isnt going to be remembered five minutes later.

ok, well i am rambling now, perhaps today will be better. i have no work or school to deal with. so my primary focus is going to be on doing school work which is due friday. wish me luck and a fast recovery to the sane world.