I posted a blog entry on Monday. I didn't edit it or anything, I was just typing to get out some of my thoughts and the things that have been running through my mind. I postsed it on here since I use this site as a social outlet.
I only posted it here so that I could just get it out there and maybe get some feed back. Joe came across it last night and he didn't even read the whole thing, but he read enough that now he feels like a failure, he said to me yesterday that he's really good at fixing things, but he can't fix us.
Now I'm just wondering if this is something that he'll be able to get past and dismiss it as what it truely is, me just venting and getting my pent up shit out of my head, or if he wont be able to accept it and insist that one of us leaves.
I feel that I don't have the energy to be really upset about it, though I feel that I should be. I could honestly at this point go either way and probably feel the same.... Maybe I'm just tired of being upset and have built a wall for myself....
I only posted it here so that I could just get it out there and maybe get some feed back. Joe came across it last night and he didn't even read the whole thing, but he read enough that now he feels like a failure, he said to me yesterday that he's really good at fixing things, but he can't fix us.
Now I'm just wondering if this is something that he'll be able to get past and dismiss it as what it truely is, me just venting and getting my pent up shit out of my head, or if he wont be able to accept it and insist that one of us leaves.
I feel that I don't have the energy to be really upset about it, though I feel that I should be. I could honestly at this point go either way and probably feel the same.... Maybe I'm just tired of being upset and have built a wall for myself....
burningleviathan:
sometimes things happen for a reason. You sounded like you wanted an out, maybe this is it. Your husband may calm down after a while, his ego/heart is probably quite bruised at the moment. The best thing you both can do is sit down and talk and try to figure out what it is you actually want.