samyouwell

I'm a complete fuckwit!
Seriously tempted to abandon ship and move over to san fran, work as a painter/decorator with him.

In the last exciting instalment, i met ****. For a solid week i couldn't stop thinkin about her. Not my ussual behaviour at all.
Still reelin from the gina episode, i'm puttin it about a bit, shallow i know. "bad sam"

So last night i go to ****'s party, a fun night, fueled entirely on red wine and weed.
Alex is friendly, though notably she has an entourage of male suitors, .........I don't think any of us have a chance.
At about 7am the party dies down, she bids fair well and moves off to her bedroom, INTERCEPTION! I stop her to have a chat in the hall. Probably not the best stoned/drunk idea i've had of late.
I did the worst thing i possibly could have, no i didn't crap myself, nor puke on her.
I told her the truth, "you're fuckin gorgeous, I can't stop thinkin about you", i must have thought i could cut the crap, but you can't. I'm now completely demistified. I also suspect she had been in that situation before by the calm way she handled it.
Although.... to be fair, she was well happy with my explanation of an element of my rash outburst. The quite confidence she has, a friend of her's is quite hot, but dances and flirts with everyone to remind herself of the fact. This behaviour of a 'taken' girl is plain unattractive. **** isn't like that, she must know she's hot, but doesnt act like it. Which gives another dimension of hotness.

Anyway we hugged, peck on cheek. So close, yet so far. goddamn.

I gave her my number, didn't take hers cos i don't wanna hassle her, and i'm sure i would if i could.

Maybe she'll call.....
Probably not....


sam