samyouwell

ok so....

I saw Narnia yesterday... at a friends house so i couldn't just leave.... i felt like a fly having it's legs and wings pulled off..... then watching an ominous drop of water slowly dribble towards me....

In other news... i think my girlfriend still loves her ex... he is concentrated evil... imagine the worst shit you could put your girl through and you're probably thinking of him on a good day... he did a real number on the mind of the most precious innocent person i've ever known... i think i'm gonna lose her cos of it.... this really sucks.... i want to marry the fuck out of her.... but i realise she's not really primed for the thinnest pretence of a relationship..... wtf.... anybody got any clues as to what i should do?...
at the mo... i'm thinking i'm just gonna talk to her... if there's owt we have, it's the inate ability to talk in the most relaxed fashion... like we've known each other all our lives............................................. In a way i have... it feels like all the shit i've been through (which was fuck-all compared to what she had to deal with) was a precursory training ground.... preparing me for her........ this really fuckin' sucks.