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Memphis

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Tuesday Jun 08, 2004

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I called my insurances number today to try and find a pychiatrist. I had to tell 2 different people that I "had thoughts of suicide and a desire to harm myself"

I got like 7 numbers for different doctors in the area, and If I didnt have to leave for work soon, Id start calling and try to pick one.

I want to stop being so ridiculous, its hard when you dont even know why something bothers you, you just know that it does. I might be bipolar, thats the main reason Im trying to go, is so I can find out, and maybe get it treated. Ive always wanted to avoid having to take medicines, I dont want artificial feelings, but then I guess thats what ive got now, that I dont really FEEL what I think I should be feeling.

So anyway, Im gonna go, ill be around somewhere, if anyone cares...
jmax:
I've always been against "medicating" for things like bipolar disorder and the like, but the more i read on it and see the way family members are on and off...i'm changing my view of it. I know it has to suck feeling that way. I hope you have family that can be support for you. good luck (that is the most retarded thing to say, sorry) i hope you are successful in finding a doctor and get to feeling the way you want.
Jun 8, 2004

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