So if you’ve been following my insta (which SG don’t follow me after my old one was deleted last year, sad times 🥺) you’ll be aware I’m giving up OF…
I started OF back in 2018 when my modelling took off and I started to do quite well on Suicide Girls. Unfortunately after Summer in 2018 I was s3xually assaulted and since then I have really struggled mentally to create content. Since suffering with ppd after having a baby and uprooting my life during the pandemic and being a single parent away from friends and family my mental health has rapidly declined. For this reason I’ve struggled as you may know to stay consistent with my posting. I also have not felt comfortable with my body since the assault. I really struggle to look at the content when editing and posting it.
I want to focus on getting better mentally and being the best mum I can be. For this reason I am stepping away. The pressure from others and that I put on myself is just too much to cope with and mentally it’s just not healthy for me.
I will continue to model, I will continue with SG as that’s where it all started for me and I find the community more uplifting here and there’s no pressure as to when/create content.
I’m currently having a HUGE leaving sale over on my OF with 75% off 👀 I hope you can understand and support my decision. Thank you for the continued support over the years. Once the last subscriber has gone I will be removing my page.
I have been feeling rather deflated that no photographers or models reach out to me anymore to work together, makes me feel like I’m not good enough. No one shares my images/work. Haven’t had any interest or support from people here on SG really though I have been quiet (a few of you do keep in touch). But my mental health mixed with lack of interest/support kinda does make me feel like giving up completely but SG has had my heart since I was like 15/16 and I’ve just celebrated my 31st birthday (June 11th btw) and I feel maybe I’m past it now? Maybe my look just isn’t a vibe anymore? I don’t know. Just feel very lost, very lonely, and very unwanted ever since I got pregnant really 😕
I don’t know if anyone would like to make a new set with me, currently still rocking my buzzcut, not as skinny as I was 🤷🏼♀️ But I miss the confidence boost shoots use to give me and want to give it one last shot I guess 🥺
Anyway,
Much love
Sammiii xo
