samling

had an interview today for a job i really want, but now that i like my job i've got....eh...

i've really got nothing going on, other than i tried to call my friends and none of them could talk cuz they were busy. couldn't even do a good prank call. i feel- and i KNOW!! I KNOW!!! it's not anyone's fault, it's just my insecurities rising up, so no one get upset- that a lot of people in my life are abandoning me. no one calls anymore, or emails me, or even pops in here. well, not no one...but not the people i'm used to. i know you guys are all busy, and the friends not on here are too... but i wonder if it's ME that's wrong, ME that's the reason no one calls. i have worked so hard on myself the last couple years, but it doesn't mean i'm without thoughts that could make one sad. i know i'm very insecure on a lot of levels, and that will probably never ever change. it was drilled into me for MANY MANY years i was worthless. it was ME and only me that changed that.

i forgot how much i love south tacoma way and all the rad SHOPS down there. i definately think i should convince some of the SGSeattle kids to go on a super fun field trip. the swap meet, B&I, the duffle bag....and so many other shops. i could go on and on.

i just heard the song that reminds my of my first kiss.

how old were you when you had your first real kiss??