samling

i got a job today. i start monday.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY MrDeity !!!!

last night i hung out with the SGSeattle crew. i got lost, had to call Sydni , then went and picked up a very cheerful and drunken purpledustmurder , got to our meeting place, but there was no karaoke going on, so after a bit, we walked down to another place where there was. it was swanky, laid-back and oh my goodness!! some of the voices were rad. had a god time talking to our folks, and just hanging out. i sang a pat benetar song i hadn't sang in forever...to the point that i forgot the bridge to it. i faked it. hahaha. the happy drunk looked like he was ready for a nap, so after my goodbyes, i took him home. then i got lost again. i ALWAYS get lost in that area.

got home, talked to sis, fell asleep and today i'm hanging out until after the mail gets here. then it's carving pumpkins for a couple days at mom #3's house.

and try to find a babysitter for kiddo. that should be interesting. more because the hours i'm going to be working will be hard to find a sitter. oy.

and i don't have else to report....except i need a refill on the coffee.

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waiting for insomnia to subside....it is winning....

i'm at one of my best friend's house, staying the night. got 5 pumpkins carved, gonna do the rest that i brought from mom #3's house(4 more) after some sleep. they're all cool looking. made $20 weeding today. and i need a back rub so bad right now it's amazing. every muscle in my shoulders and neck are aching from how tense they are.

i get to see my mother sometime in the afternoon to wish her happy birthday. how sad is it that the only thing i want from my parents is the one thing i'll never get? i'll never treat my baby like damaged goods.

crushes are dumb and i need to stop either having a heart or a brain so i can no longer find men attractive. because mr. perfect for me doesn't exist. hell, i'll take a mr. treats me decent and doesn't treat me like i'm inferior at this point....

i saw the eclipse tonight. so super rad.

and if i could fall in love with tall beautiful women, i'd beg
Sydni to let me be her cabana girl.

now, if i could fall in love with short awesome women....well, she knows who she is, and she's already got someone who loves her more then the world. but she knows that.